My Father’s Hat
To the memory of Jim Greeley, friend of my youth
Dear friend, you sent me a photograph,
a black-and-white freeze-frame image of the past.
In it I am wearing my father’s hat.
The brown hat that smelled of ancient sweat
and Dublin drizzle. The kind of hat
worn by Alan Ladd in gangster films.
I am wearing my father’s hat
and I am seated between two companions:
together we are tightly bunched
like veterans from an old brigade.
Since then we have lost touch.
And I will never again find my father’s hat.
It is hard enough to find my father in the old part of the cemetery where all paths look the same.
Gerard Smyth, second from left, with companion wearing My Father’s Hat. June 1969.